THE GOSPEL
OF JUDITH
ISCARIOT
by Y.I. H AY
(Text {for play/movie/novel} for an Eco-Feminist Passion Play, and for initiating seekers of redemption in our technotronic and bureaucratic age into The Order of The HEJERA (The Heavenly Jerusalem Association.)
Version A.2
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THE GOSPEL
OF JUDITH ISCARIOT - ACT II
Scene Three
- JUDITH IN THE MESSIAH MACHINE
(The stage is illuminated. Judith is in the MESSIAH Machine,
on the little podium inside the sculpture-like construction made of three circular
rings of red, blue and yellow. The rings are at right angle to each other,
and the plane of each is at 45 degree angle to the ground. On the ground, at
the focus of each circle, there is a little altar of the same color, and up
on the back wall are three round screens facing the audience.)
JUDITH: Something moves there... It
wants to grow. A red light glows.. (a red light starts glowing
on the red altar) Something in my heart responds to it.
(as she says the word "heart", the glowing red light
begins to pulsate) JUDITH: From it, through me, the
stirring extends. I'm shivering, I'm getting scared. I feel as if, while standing
still, I'm being taken on a ride... There's a face forming on the screen behind...
(a face forms faintly on the corresponding screen)
JUDITH: I see an eye forming, now two. I know them
well. This look of love and infinite compassion. A moment ago I was frightened,
but now, Jesus is looking at me, and in him I am safe. Haki left me
alone in this machine, left me for his machine here. But with Jesus
here, I know I'll never be betrayed. (as she says the word
"betrayed", a yellow light glows on the corresponding altar, and
the sound of "betray" is heard reverberating in the room.)
JUDITH: But what is this light, yellow and bright?
(As she speaks, the word "bright" reverberates now
together with the word "betray". Hearing the sounds, it becomes evident
that these two seemingly different words are but two different combinations
of the same phonemes. Another combination - "Brit" - is also sometimes
uttered, but less often and weaker than the other two.)
JUDITH: This word of fear and separation - "betray" - reverberates
with this bright yellow light. Does this yellow light mean fear of betrayal,
or separation, or doubt, or the possibility of breaking with the love that
Jesus stands for? Who - apart, and yet within me, is causing this?
(There is a short silence while Judith struggles to answer
herself.) JUDITH: It is the doubting witness. It is
I, myself; both the betrayed and the betrayer. (as she says
the word "I", an image of an eye is formed on the screen opposite
the yellow altar) JUDITH: An eye appears whenever
I say "I". Who is this "I"? Am I
that eye? Could "I" be mere reverberations,
perhaps a pile of self-reflections?
(pause) Reflected from that eye, I see
my figure, The figure that is called Judith Ish-krayot.
What does this mean - a Jewess man of cities?
How can this strange name be my own?
(pause) Who is that "Ish"? Is
this "a man", When I am not a man at all?
Nor am I merely woman. No. That "Ish"
must be neither a woman nor a man. That "Ish"
is not of the world of separation, Is not identified with
the outside world... (The sound "Ish" reverberates,
and the image of the eye winks. When the image of the eye opens, the figure
of the pupil glows and becomes more clearly visible. Inside the pupil is Judith's
figure. An arrow is drawn, pointing to the pupil and the figure, and letters
and words are formed thus: Ishon
: Hebrew for pupil of the eye.
From the diminutive of "Ish"
i.e. man.) JUDITH: Yes, now I know who this enigmatic
Ish-krayot is! (Singing): This little
man inside the eye, inside of me, Reflecting and reflected
on everything I see, The inner connoisseur of all my dreams
and visions, An urbane-man-of-cities that always judges
Judith. I am a part of the world outside,
But all the while, I am inside, A
city-world within my head, Made of his dreams and visions.
I have not one, but two worlds full of mystery,
Each goes by its own laws, follows its rhythms,
But, most mysteriously, both get united in me.
(The yellow light starts flickering with great speed. Then
it starts being echoed, falteringly, then more steadily, by a blue flicker
from the "blue" altar. Then, like a moon rise, a bluish disk appears
on the screen opposite the "blue" altar. It is the same image of
the stars and crescent moon and the Earth as appeared in the underground planetarium-laboratory
into which Judith escaped from the riot.) JUDITH: The
inner and the outer, they fade in and out, each switching
on and off the other world. It's still a mystery to me,
how to unite, the worlds of the Earth and of the man inside.
(The image of the Earth appears more clearly on the other
screen. The play of the alter-nation of the lights of the altars is now repeated,
though more slowly, on the screens. On one screen is the image of the eye,
with the human figure inside, and on the other, the image of the Earth. Sometimes
one image fades as the other shines brightly, and sometimes one image switches
the other on. Then there are also alternations. First the colors of the images
change till they rub into each other, and both images have more variety of
color in them. Then the position of the images sometimes switches. Then at
times the image of the Earth stays on one screen, while it also moves to the
other screen, so that the new image of the eye unites with the old image of
the Earth, which forms the pupil of the eye.) JUDITH:
In and out, each switches the other on and off. This
mystery seems much too much for me. One Earth outside,
another Earth inside my brain. I wish I could find the
Ish who could explain. I want to hold on to the one and
real Earth, For the city of the mind inside must be made,
Of nothing else but images and simulations,
Of earthly events and of their explanations.
There are two worlds which unite in creation,
like Heaven and Earth created again and again.
I feel I need some well-informed interpretation,
As only Jesus or the Great Parshan could explain.
(The two images start looking like two eyes. An eye blinks,
and some other features appear on the wall between the screens. A simulation
of a face starts to form, like in some of Magritte's pictures, where several
objects from different distances seem to join into the form of a human face.
As the face clarifies, the face of the Great Parshan starts to form, first
two eyes, from which the image of the Earth gradually fades. A triple wrinkle
forms on his brow. Then the other features form, until he is complete, big
beard and all. As the face forms, it diminishes in size, with the fixed point
being his "blue" right eye, so that eventually his whole face fits
within the "blue" screen.) JUDITH: You, oh
old Great Parshan, who claims to know all answers,
Do you truly know who you are?
And if so, can you also tell me, Who,
or what, I am and why? (As Judith speaks these words, big letters,
"U" and "R", appear
in blue on the other screen. Then big letters, "M"
and "I" in red, and then "
Y" in yellow, appear also on that screen. Then the letters start
blinking, changing colors and places, even multiplying a little so that, at
times, they form different combinations, such as "I M
", "U R", "Y M
I" and "R U I" and "
Y R U" and "U R I".
Meanwhile, the image of the Great Parshan on the other screen seems to speak,
and we hear his voice.) PARSHAN'S IMAGE: I speak for
countless generations, Of secret clerics of the City of
Shalem, Of agents, by the unfolding of civilization,
to bring about the Heavenly Jerusalem.
I was there when Adam was created, and
I go on giving witness to all humankind.
I am the carrier of the seed, the Eternal Jew.
And mark this, Judith, this seed is in you too.
Yes, I am you Judith, and you are I. You
are as I am, the Eternal Jew. Whenever you ask: "Am
I a Jew?", you'll see our sign saying "
I M U". (The letters "
I M U" and "M I U
", appear on the screen, then also the letters "
U R I" and "R U I
". They keep blinking, altering colors and changing permutations.)
JUDITH: If you are I, and I am you, and you are eternal,
then I should be eternal too, and without fear. But I have my fears, and so
have you. You fear that your work will be threatened if you side with the Savior
Jesus, and you deny him. Why do you deny Him who really has eternal life to
give? For I have seen that only he can raise the dead. (The
word "dead" hangs on the screen, reverberating, while the yellow
and blue lights change place again and again and again.)
PARSHAN'S IMAGE: Even if he raised the dead, soon they would die again.
For only the Words of God live on, sustaining the whole of creation. Only if
man's mind remains always open to God's words, will man not need to die, and
be able to live on and on forever. God's teachings and
genetic instructions can live forever, as they keep being
recreated in the brain and in the womb. The Lord is alive
forever in recurring generations, When His words resound
eternally in the Jewish soul. In order for the word of
God to be known, it must be incarnated again and again,
by a living tradition, in each generation.
This is the Savior, whose name is Israel.
You may think your eyes have seen your Savior,
but whatever your eye has seen will wither,
as surely as your idol Jesus will die.
Believe what you will, it will not change a thing.
'Cause he got caught in a tale of the Word of God,
In which only his dying will do the best for him.
(The lights turn off and the stage is dark for a moment at
the mention of the words "Jesus will die". Then the red and yellow
lights flash on the central altar.)
JUDITH: No! It cannot be so! He will not die! I'd rather
die myself instead. The pain in my heart is unbearable even at the thought
of it. Oh Jesus, come and comfort me! (The image of Jesus
appears on the screen opposite the image of the Great Parshan, and seems to
speak, and we hear a voice.) JESUS'S IMAGE: (to tune
of "Do not forsake me" from "High Noon")
Do not fear so my death, my Judith.
No need for grief or sacrifice. My
flesh may die, but not my spirit, For I shall come again
and rise. Belief in me may wither, Judith,
Be buried in the hearts of men. From
there yet I'll be resurrected, And from the earth I'll
rise again. JUDITH: I do not understand, my lord. Please
tell me. Can you die, or are you immortal? Are you the Son of Man, or the
Son of God? JESUS'S IMAGE: I am that I am.
JUDITH: But what is that? Can you share in my doubts?
Would that you knew how it feels to suffer so. But how can you understand my
agonies and fears, if you do not even know the fear of death? Without it, how
can you be in my place? How can you accept me as I am, let alone be that
I am? JESUS'S IMAGE: Acceptance and pain are
my true essence, Through them, I keep whole the entire
universe. The pain it takes to make the mountains stand,
And then to raise the plants to eat the mountains,
Is much, much more than you could understand.
I take on me much more than you can withstand.
I love the world in spite of its indifference,
Despite ingratitude, disdain and even hate,
I would accept it all along and onto death.
And I accept you, Judith, both as you are,
And as what ultimately you would come to be.
These two are beheld as one with me.
JUDITH: Dear Jesus, I rest assured of your acceptance,
- Of whatever I may be and of whatever I may do.
Yet what if what the Great Parshan told is true,
and you can die in pain like every mortal?
You may not care about yourself, the pain of death,
may look to you no greater than the pain of living.
You may not care, but I sure do. You
may be sure to rise again, but mortal Judith lives just
once. I must decide who I am and why I am who I am,
and act before I'm gone and it's too late to act.
I also suffer pain, that of the Rasan yoke. And
I must do my best to make a new and better world.
Answer me now! For I must understand!
How can you profess to love the world,
accepting both oppressor and oppressed?
Will you not rise up against the Rasans,
and shake the mountains over them? (Rather
than an answer, Judith is confronted by the image of Jesus fading away. She
makes frantic gestures in the direction of the faded image, but there is no
response. Judith then turns away from the screen on which Jesus's image appeared,
and retreats into herself.) JUDITH: I am to act. I
know it. Whether my action is effective or not, I must act. Jesus could bring
down the mountains on the Rasans, but he will not act. I, who am so weak, am
the one who must act in his stead. But how? I so much need a real man to help
me, but, sweet Jesus, it is not you. So I'm forced to turn again to the Great
Parshan for advice. You, Great Parshan, who have so much
knowledge, can you give real help? What wisdom was there in your saying that
Jesus shall die, that only his dying will do the best for him? Do you not say
this only out of envy or fear, because Jesus challenges and threatens you and
what you stand for? PARSHAN'S IMAGE: That Ish, that
son of man, is dangerous as long as he lives, for he is apt to raise up hopes
that cannot be fulfilled. Not yet. He is prone to stir up the impatient youth
to act too soon, and if they do, they will be crushed before they even start
the real quest. He will precipitate repression upon us all, causing the work
we Parshans have done to be undone. And that's the most important work in all
human history. JUDITH: You said he should die for the
tale he's entailed with, but would you die for your work? For he has told me
he would, but you people won't. PARSHAN'S IMAGE: I would
die for our work, just as he said he would - and he most likely should. I'd
sacrifice even my only son, if need be. JUDITH: Again
this gruesome tale, of Abraham and Isaac. But Abraham was ready to sacrifice
his true son. For God. And you? You are ready to sacrifice Jesus for your work.
And what's more - the former had a happy ending, a promise of laughter, as
Isaac's name, "Yitzhak", means future laughter. But I find no laughter
here; for the issue here, is what Jesus' name, "Yeshua", stands for
- namely salvation. Are you prepared to see the promise of salvation die with
Jesus? PARSHAN'S IMAGE: If the issue is indeed the
promise of salvation and none else - it is salvation in the female sense. That
rash male showmanism of Jesus is of no avail. This is the work for Knesset
Yisrael. (pause) There are a few things I would be ready to die for, and
only one thing for which I would sacrifice my own son, my future hope. This
one thing is to preserve the promise and the mission, given from God to Abraham,
the promise to transform this world and to redeem all humankind into God's
people, by the endeavor of the whole nation of Israel. Israel is God's only
and beloved son - or daughter rather - not just your Jesus, but Knesset
Yisrael, which is all the Jewish people, the Judaic community whose name
you bear. JUDITH: But why the Jewish people?
PARSHAN'S IMAGE: We were trusted with this mission
because we were the most tenacious people on Earth, tenacious in suffering
and tenacious in preserving each letter and iota of the Torah - and even in
readiness to sacrifice ourselves for sanctifying God's name. All our other
virtues, like cleverness and kindness and love of knowledge, are but incidental,
sometimes pleasant, sometimes not. But tenacity is pure and enduring, and this
we have always had in plenty. Even if the books of history
were open to you, Judith, you would not believe what the Jewish people have
been through. Universes of suffering, and persecution. And like that legendary
Phoenix bird, we survived where the mightiest vanished. And why? Just to preserve
the Torah from Heaven, and to inject all humankind with our dream of realizing
Heaven, the Heavenly Jerusalem, upon this Earth. We have lived to see the offshoots
of Judaism flourish and spread, only to get corrupted and be turned against
us. But we survived to breed more dreams. JUDITH: But
what has all that to do with the world we live in now? With the whole world
under the yoke of the Rasans, what has the promise to the Jewish people to
do with anything? And how are the Jewish people keeping their promise nowadays
anyway? PARSHAN'S IMAGE: We are not. Not yet. Today
the rule of materialism and its related Rasanal idolatry is total. There are
no nations left to overcome it in open battle. All hope for this is gone. The
only way to keep this promise for humankind is to vanquish the Rasans from
inside, and this is what we, the Parshans, on behalf of the Jewish people,
are dedicated to do. This is how the Jewish people are keeping their promise.
Jesus' teachings may be based on something similar, but his approach is all
wrong. He is so hot, he's already scorched his stew, and he is so self-centered,
till he is blind to the needs of the people. That is why he is dangerous to
us all while he still lives. JUDITH: Why do you keep
derogating him? PARSHAN'S IMAGE: Don't misunderstand
me. I admire that man from the Galilee, our people knew many great prophets,
and he has the heart of one. I could love him as my own true son. But, as Abraham
did even to his only son, I am prepared to sacrifice him. At a time like this,
his material presence is dangerous to the one hope we have tenaciously clung
to for over two thousand years. He is dangerous to the subtle design that we
are working for in this University, whose days, I fear, are numbered. If he
incites the students once again, everything we have worked for in secrecy will
go up in a puff of smoke. We are not ready yet. We need just a little more
time, to perfect a new medium of education that will transmit the seed of freedom
and redemption from one generation to another. Just a little more time, till
it can replace this University. But our time will be terminated - along with
our holy work - if Jesus' manifestations are not. Thus it is a question of
Jesus or us. It is the Rasans, not me, who have created this situation, but
fate obliges me to choose who must be sacrificed, and I have no other choice.
It must be Jesus. JUDITH: The Rasans have created this
situation, then they should be the ones to pay. Not Jesus. You're saying one
has to choose between the sacrifice of Jesus or the sacrifice of the promise
to the Jewish people. I have resolved to act, and I will. But there must be
a way to avoid this monstrous choice! I implore you both, isn't there a way
to save both Jesus and Israel, and together rid ourselves of the Rasans?
(The lights start flashing madly, like some merry-go-round.
The image of Jesus returns, and the images of him and of the Great Parshan
change places a few times. On the central screen, the images of the eye, with
the little man within, and the Earth, also change places.)
JUDITH: Oh God, it is too much for me. To sacrifice
either the promise of Abraham or he who is like his true son. Why should there
be sacrifice at all? I cannot hurt either. Please please, show me a another
way. Did you not give Abraham both a son and a promise, and then a surrogate
for sacrifice? Won't you do the same for me? ....... If
there is a way both to act and to avoid choosing between two horrors, it must
be to change the situation, to have the courage to laugh and look at it in
a new way. What was it that Haki said? I'm to be crucified in three
dimensions. This must mean that the resolution is in another dimension. He
also said the Rasans were the fourth side to the square. Yes. The Rasans again.
They forced this situation. They should become the sacrifice, them and them
alone. Not Jesus, nor the promise of Abraham. The wrath of God and of Earth
should pour on them alone. There must be a way. Let me look again at the equation,
it must be there somewhere. I must find it. (The lights dim
and slow down and glow more warmly and receptively. The image of the eye grows
until it occupies the whole center screen. The figure of the man within the
eye can be seen clearly. It is Jesus.) JUDITH: The I
within the eye, the Ish within Ishon... this must be the solution. Jesus inside
the fourth factor, within the Rasans, as is the Ish within the eye that is
I. I cannot fight them. The Parshans cannot fight them. Only Jesus can - if
only he could be made to act. I could not convince him with words or theories.
I could not force him, but those nasty Rasans could, without thinking twice.
Only they could push him to the point where he would be forced to act....
and then he would turn the Earth against them. That Great Parshan indicated
that he should be sacrificed. But there must be a way to do so that will lead
to the Rasan ruin, without any real harm coming to him. Like with Isaac, with
a kind of sacrifice bringing not death but life. Yes, I think at last I have
a plan that could work. Dangerous, but it could work. What would Jesus say?
Would he think I was helping him or betraying him? Would he forgive me, or
shall I be damned? But what about me, the real me, my Ish that is my name?
Have I not already seen that he is the Jesus, the human-yet-divine Chrystal
within me? Would I be helping or betraying him? Would the little man inside
forgive me? It is only proper that he decide for himself, which is for me,
for he is in me and of me. (she turns to the image of Jesus) So, what do you
say about my plan to give you to the Rasans? JESUS'S IMAGE:
Your plan is yours. You must go your way. You must do what you must do,
in order to be you, Judith, so that we can all be who we are. So do it - Judith.
The flesh is weak, both yours and mine, and like all flesh, it must die. But
death of flesh is not the end. There are those who rise again, if that is their
destiny, and no one should deny one's destiny. What counts is to love this
world, love all in it, even those who will betray you in your own name, for
they too cannot help what they do. Your plan is but a part of a greater plan
which cannot be impeded. Go and do what you must do. And I shall accept and
forgive you Judith, no matter what. And as for me, don't worry, I will always
rise again. Wherever you look - you will find me there. Turn any stone, and
you will find me. It is His will, and mine, and yours, that what must be done
be done. (Jesus' image vanishes again.)
JUDITH: It is as if you have made the way easy for me - yet I am still
uncertain. I am still not sure of this "Ish" in the eye who watches
the "I". I thought it was you who had to decide, the you that was
in the eye of the "Ish" that is "I", but it is I who must.
That "Ish" agreed to your betrayal, as if "you yourself"
did, though I am not sure whether it is your betrayal or your immortality that
was decided. All this should have eliminated all doubt, but it hasn't. Some
doubt lingers, and there is no one else to consult. I must make up my own mind...
No, I have. I must do what I must do. Must do what must be done.
(Haki knocks on the door.) JUDITH:
Come in. It is done. (Haki enters to confront
Judith.) JUDITH: Have you been watching me?
HAKI: No. Till now you had complete privacy.
There's an indicator that signals when the session is over, when the polarization
ended. And I watched till I saw it. Is your mind made up now?
JUDITH: So it seems. H
AKI: What does that mean? You have such a distant look in your eyes.
Is everything all right? Can I be of any help? JUDITH:
No. Your mechanical Messiah has provided all the help I needed, though
it was no fun by any means. Nevertheless I survived. Now it seems you've saved
me from the Rasans only to send me back to them. H
AKI: What do you mean? Back to the Rasans? What are you talking
about? JUDITH: Too late. You should have worried before
I entered that Messiah Machine of yours. When I needed a human shoulder to
lean on, not some electronic system. HAKI:
I was worried about you then - but I didn't know what to do. As I explained
- I was as helpless as you. I could not arbitrate a matter - in which I was
so involved with one side. JUDITH: You didn't know
what else to do? How come? You who know everything, you who made the machine,
you now confess you know less than your creation? Would God have done that
to his creature? HAKI: You're laughing
at me. JUDITH: That bothers you, does it, to be laughed
at - you claimed you are the one who always HAD the last laugh!
HAKI: Judith! What has come over you?
JUDITH: I think I've learned to be the "Ish"
that I am, the little man inside the eye inside of me. Oh, I am also the Jewess
who needs love and caring for, but I am no longer just that. I am much, much
more now... thanks to you and your machine. H
AKI: What Ish? What little man? What more? What are you talking
about? JUDITH: The little man inside the eye
inside of me. It is not a question of what sex I am, but who I am. It might
have been a question of sex before.. But last I understand what Jesus meant
about making the woman and the man one. I feel whole for the very first time.
I have made up my mind and am going to act just like the Ish I am, the real
man in me. HAKI: But you are a real woman
as well! What of her desires? Her dreams? The common dreams we had? What of
the garden we - planned to have - within the city - with others of like mind
- to show them a better way? What about your future - our future?
JUDITH: Too late. I don't envision much future for
me, once I act. It is not that I care for you less, but I have decided what
I must do. HAKI: This is all happening
- so fast, I can't follow. You are serious about - going to the Rasans?
JUDITH: Yes. There is no other way.
HAKI: For God's sake, why?
JUDITH: If the mountain will not come to the Messiah,
and the Messiah cannot be made to go to the mountain, then the two must be
brought together by whoever can... HAKI:
Oh my God! You don't mean it? I see that you do. Would that I could talk
you - out of it, but the determination - of this new you is overwhelming. I
see it would be - pointless to even try. But surely you will come back, once
it is done? JUDITH: One thing at a time. Now that I
know what I must do, I must do it. What happens afterwards, will happen. I
cannot even guess what it will be. HAKI:
But what about the things - we've planned? Don't you remember? Our model
for the Heavenly Jerusalem here on Earth? Our dreams of a better world? What
about you and I? JUDITH: You and I... and what about
those billions of people you called the "Global brain cells"?
HAKI: No. Just you and I, and the love
that grows between us, and the knowledge we'll grow, together with friends,
and show how to live together - and with the Earth and with - the better city?
JUDITH: It was just a daydream, our plans to build
a parcel of the Heavenly Jerusalem in the Earthly Jerusalem... We can't make
a reality out of daydreams. And besides, I have my own plan now, and it is
definitely not a daydream, and I must pursue it. H
AKI: No, no! We can accomplish our dreams! Together, we can
do both. You'll see we can. Even if you proceed with your plan - we need not
give out our dreams. I know how we can do it. Go to the Rasans if you must
- and do there what you must - but ask for a piece of land for yourself - for
us, in return. Tell them it's for an urban agriculture research station - tell
them anything you want - but bargain for a piece of land - you can do it, believe
me - and you will get it. It's not too far off - from the truth. They will
owe you something - for delivering Jesus to them - and will want to pay. It
will work, it will - just ask, and it may be yours. And it will give me hope
- that we still have a future. JUDITH: It just might
give me credibility with the Rasans if I appeared materialistically oriented,
it might prevent them from suspecting my true motives. I'll keep it in mind.
HAKI: Do! Please do. You have nothing
to lose - by suggesting it. JUDITH: I have lost everything
already. I must be off. If you want to help me, help me to find the Headquarters
of the Rasan Intelligence. HAKI: Since
there is no stopping you, I will help. I happen to know the way to go about
it. If this is what you have to do - then do it. But afterwards - don't forget
us - and our dream. (Haki and Judith exit together.
He offers her his hand, and she reluctantly takes it. He smiles, but she does
not respond, absorbed as she is in what she is about to do. The stage goes
dark.)
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